I was challenged by a sermon to consider where and when I was making time for God beyond my normal routine–to consider the spiritual discipline of solitude and silence. I started thinking about it. I do kind of have a routine with God in the evenings, and I pray at random times during the day. However, there wasn’t a lot of margin in my life for just hearing from God let alone giving him space to speak. Neither was there much room for my brain to process without a lot of other distractions.
After a few different moments of reflection, I decided that while I usually live alone, home was not the best place for this. There’s too much visual noise. The office is really where I’m supposed to be focused on other things—God and his work definitely, but not so much the solitude and silence part (though it’s not such a bad idea some days!). The best place for me to find that space was in my car. Normally I don’t drive a lot–about 10 minutes to and from the office each day, perhaps twice that if I’m running errands. But 20 minutes a day (give or take) is 20 minutes.
So, I turned off the radio. Since it was a few weeks before Easter, I figured it could be my attempt to give something up for Lent (not a normal practice in my life). I struggled at first. I wondered what the traffic report was—forget the fact that unless Godzilla was walking down my street, my commute was never going to make the news. I thought about the banter between the cohosts on the morning and afternoon shows. I considered what songs I might be missing. I rejoiced that I didn’t have to listen to more bad advertising.
It took a little over a week for my thoughts to find new directions. I started to noticing people who repeatedly appeared along my route. My annoyance with the RTD buses diminished. I started praying more—prayers of blessing and safety for those texting and driving next to me; prayers of health and joy for the elderly couple out for their morning walk; prayers for a sense of calmness when someone cut me off; and prayers of thanksgiving when I realized I made a dumb driving error and no one was injured.
Beyond talking to God, I started listening to him. I’d ask a question and then just wait. Sometimes a verse would jump into my mind right away. Other times I’d find myself singing a hymn or praise song that had just the right words to answer my situation. Sometimes, I sit in silence secure in the knowledge that God will tell me what he needs to tell me when I need to know and really not before that.
For the most part, my car remains a spot of silence and solitude. I turned the radio on Easter Monday that first year—for about 2 minutes. I couldn’t take the inconsequential chatter and noise. The radio has come on a few times—while I’m stuck in traffic on the Interstate, when I’m traveling and it looks like there might be a wall of storm a few miles ahead, when I need another voice in the car to help me stay awake. I have a mix CD that I play on longer trips because rolling down the road to “Life is a Highway” or “Man in the Mirror” or “I’m Gonna Be” (the I Would Walk 500 Miles song) and singing at the top of my lungs is therapeutic once in a great while.
Most of the time, however, silence fills my car. I can hear my own thoughts. I can talk to God attend to what he has to say. I can enjoy the white space of solitude and silence.
Where do you find the space to tune out so you can tune in?
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